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I think that most transvestites are prompted mostly by vanity but that true vanity, is every transvestite's right. It is surely one of the reasons why I am a transvestite. I think that when I reach the age where I no longer can make myself attractive as a woman, I will lose all interest in being a TV. It has been said that no matter how old we get ner how unattractive we become the de- sire will always be there. I don't know--they may be right, only time will tell.

While feminine perfection is my goal, I have not attained it. One of the most difficult things for me to do is to disguise my voice. I have been successful thus far only because I am always conscious of it, when I am "Terry" and I know that if I attempted to talk in a falsette voice, I would be spotted immediately. What I do is to elevate my voice as much as possible without straining, and always speak softly, never in a loud voice under any condition. I never call out for a taxi, to a waiter, or to get anyone's att- ention. Sometimes, this restraint is difficult, but is a must for

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Another voice difficulty that I have is when speaking on the telephone. This is absolutely impossibly for me, and no matter hew I have tried, I have not been successful. Telephone operaters, in particular, recognize the masculine undertones in my voice, ne matter at what pitch I may talk. The explanation, I think, is the fact that when a person sees a woman, he automatically expects to hear a women's voice, and therefore pays no attention to the actual voice sound, as long as it is somewhere within the feminine range. Then again, it may be that the listener does not hear the masculine undertones when I speak softly in person, whereas on the telephone, all the tones, and undertones, are heard equally well. Any sugg- estions from readers would be most welcome,

My hands present another problem for me, but because women wear gloves at most occasions, I do likewise and on these occasions I am safe. While my hands are not large, it seems to me that mest woman have quite petite and soft hands. My solution has been to shape and polish my nails, using a red polish te match my lipstick. Besides this, I use a pancake make-up on my hands and arms and this helps considerably. Another help is te held the hands up vert- ically from the elbow in a feminine manner whenever possible, part-